Saturday, December 29, 2007
Shits happen lately.Family,Love And more.This year is a shit for me.I'm not looking forward for the year 2008.Coz i'll know it will be more stressful and harder.Mummy woke me up just now.And complained her heart is in pain.Sometimes it will stop pumping.I hug her and ask her to go to the docter.But,she declined.Its the symtoms of Heartattack.No one knew.Except for me.She don't want to go to the docter as she knew they will refer her to the Hospital.And,Money needed.Being the eldest is the hardest.I just can't bear seeing her suffer.Inside and out.All i want is the old family back.The old family who always put a smile on the face.The family who has no problems at all and sorts.Frankly speaking,i love my mum more then i love myself.She's been there for me even i've did shits in my 16 years of life.She's the one who make me have confident in my life.To face the world even i've drop out of school.Even i'm the bad ones among the cuzzins.She put the blame to herself.As she pamperd me too much.But actually,its not her fault.Every parents would want to pampered their child.But only that they misused it.Every night after work,she'll call me and say she's waiting for me.How sweet.She'll not sleep until i reached home.Everything seems different now.I'm sorry mummy.I can;t help you much.But i'll try.I'm a good girl now right mummy?I'm working and i'm taking good care of my siblings.Even not much time spent,you're always my number one and always be inside my heart everywhere i go.I love youu.
Love.
After start working,we've like drifting apart.Yes,even we stay the same house.When i come back home,he is a sleep.When i woke up,He is out to work.I miss every single things we did together baby.And now,we can't have a proper way of talking.Always shouting,argueuing and all.Eversince i start working,he start thinking negatives and all.I'm doing this because i want to help my family okay.Bukan suke-suke.You know my type.My face want to work?Haha.aan,i miss all those sweet moments with you.We're no longer like we used to.I hope,we will change for the better.Both of us.I love you.
And,to whoever who is related to me.Like the two cousins like Kak Nor and Lini.
If you were to read about my mum post.Just don't tell any of the other cousins or pakciks or makciks.I don't want to burden them nor i don't want them to get involved in my family matters.And i know,NO ONE can help us.Much apprieciated.I miss you both.
I love you babylove.
11:22 AM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Been tagged by Feezah To do this survey.So here it is.
1. Do the following without complains.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
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FavouritesColour: Black,Hotpink,Red & Brown .
Food: Spicy Food.
Song: Universal.
Movie: My wife is a Gangster.
Sport: Badminton.
Day of The Week: Friday& Saturday.
Season: Rainy?Err.
Ice-cream: Cookies& Cream.
CurrentsMood: Tired And Feeling so Sick.
Taste: Nothing.
Clothes: Top& Shorts.
Desktop: Hp.
Toenail: Short.
Time: 10.08am.
Surroundings: Peaceful.
Annoyances: None.
Thoughts: How to cure the leg of my pain right now!Grrrr.
First
Best Friends: Ariel (Primary school siakk!)
Crush: No one.
Movie: Titanic
Lie: I do my hmwk already but never bring.Padahal aku bwk, tk buat.Nie tebalek aku tipu.
Music: Techno.
Lasts
Cigarette:Viceroy Menthol
Drink(Alcohol): Baron.
Car Ride: Err.Haha.Idk
Phone Call: Seha.
CD Played: none.
Have you ever
Dated Your Best Friend: Yaaaaa.=)
Broken The Law: Yup..
Been Arrested: Nopes.
Skinny-Dipped: Huh?.
Been On TV: Nope.
Kissed Someone You Don't Know: Nopes.
5 things you are wearing: Bra, panty, top& short.
4 things you've done today: eat, bath, work, smoke.
3 things you can hear right now: tv, keyboard, songs at media player
1 thing you do when you are bored: Karaoke.
5 people to do this
1. Effah
2. Adk Fee
3. Adk Gegerl
4. Chacha
5. Fifie.
I love you babylove.
9:56 AM
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Indeed I was Wrong.He loved me.He was just Pissed off.Thats all.Everything went smoothly after all.He called me and say he's leaving.I'll miss him.Gosh.3 days?No No No okay!Baby,I've always thought this realtionship will end sooner or later but after those shits we've been through,u'll never failed to say sorry and make surprises to me just to make me forgive you.Baby,i'm sure you know now how much you are to me.Baby,The promises and all make sure you keep it true okay.I'm sorry for being so emotional all this while.Its all because i don;t have any confident in relationships.But after the things you said,you make me realise how wonderful love can be.If only i was with you from the very start.Before all our Ex's.Baby,even its only a 3 days trip,you know how much i cried badly.I'm just not independent.As you know.Everyhere i go.Everything i do,There must be you.You pampered me too much baby.And,i really don't know how am i gonna bear if you're in NS.Sayang,I love you.And I know our love will stay forever.And as i promised,i'll never do things like that anymore.All i wanted is only you and your love.I love you baby.Come back soon.I miss you ike hell okay.
I love you babylove.
10:05 PM
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Everyday he makes me happy.3 more days he's going melaka.Pegi kampong Makcik dier with his family.3 days ok.Bukan satu hari.Satu hari tk jmper bolei mcm nak mampos rindunyer.Aper lagyk 3 hari sey.Sob-sob.Tadi,one of this lady called aan's hp.Kebetulan aku yang pegang tadi,so i picked up.And talk.She said,Nie nadia ehk?Mataer aan.Then i say yes.Negative things all in my mind.Well actually aan asked this lady to call me.Haha.He actually asked this lady to ask me if i want to work at her place.Buat sandwhich.At clark quey.Aan knows how much i've wanting to have a job.So,i said yes.But when i hear she says there'll be NO off.Terdiam aku kejap.Keje tuh kn alek boley sampai 2-3 pagi.And NO off?Fiker aku robot kaper.So,maybe this friday,i'll begoing down there and interview.Tadi,hahahaha.Aku ngn aan ambek2 pic.Dier nak tido actually.Tapi aku tk kasi.So,layankan aku,dier post muke smuer ngantok2.Heee.I love him laaaaaaaa.
Baby,I'm so gonna miss you.=(
I love you babylove.
1:57 AM
Monday, December 3, 2007
Sorry people.I don't manage to capture the surprise he made.Maklomla.Terkejot babe.Tak kn la teros nk lari p ambek camera ambek pics kn.Haha.But what i manage to capture was the picture after the surprise.But,don't worry.I'll tell what he did.We went to mapherson,his house.He opened the door and i saw alots of candles.He took my hand and we sit at the sofa.He opened a cd and ask me to watch.And guess what.A Cd that contains alot and alot of our pictures.And lastly,a video of hiself saying happy 15th anniversary.I cried.Ya laaa.Dier da sweet gitu.Macam mane la aku tk nagis kn.And suddendly,after the video ends,all the siblings and of coz,his mum.came out from the door with a cake with our picture on it.Tuh part lagik aku nages.We blew the candles together.Cut the cake,and he feed me some.Aww.He prepare all that last two weeks ago.And give the money to his mummy to prepare for him as it want to keep this as a secret from me and make it a big and sweetest surprise.I love you okay papa.Muacks-Muacks!Okay,now,the pictures.
Before going out.Ambek gambar la.Mcm la tk knl prangai aku gitu.
Ni mcm tak knl,Laki aku la,si teyleng.Abeh saper kn.
Ni la jantan gebret aku.Yang slalu disayangi oleh aku.
Ni after kite klua lift dari umah aku.sempat ey ambek.Haha.Siow.
Yang ni adik si ikah.Cute Kannn!
Si dia yang amat ku rindui.=)
Okay thats all for now babes.And aniwaes,Saper2 yg nk beli baju tuh,Tag aku pt sinie okay.Da banyak baju sold out.To confim,tag sini.Bye smuer.And,Thanks for all who wish MeowAan 15th anni.And...I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee you babyyyyyy.
I love you babylove.
11:59 PM
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Firstly,Thanks to my lovelies babes who tagged me and giving me hopes to move on.I love you people.And yea,someone asked to me explain what school i'm in now.As she/he is confused.Okay let me explain.I am 16.I dropped out of school when i was in sec 2.And now,im taking diploma in business admin.LCCI.the age limit is 16.And also,I'm taking wise in ecglish at Ite Clemnti.Meaning all night classes.Get it? =)Tomorrow is 2nd Of December.Meaning its MeowAan 15th Monthsary.We're going out later on.He said he gort a surprise for me.I just can't wait.What can it be eyy.Hmmm.K la.I guess it's just a short update.Nk siap2 babe.Nk klua.Tak sabar nk tau suprise aper akan dia kasi.Wohoo.ps;Mummy,i love you.And yea,Thanks once again people for the taggs.
I love you babylove.
6:09 PM
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