Thursday, October 11, 2007
i just can't go one finding pictures in my album to put it in my new big frame dat i bought from IKEA.alot of arwah atok pics.i will shed more tears.i just miss hym.dats all.its no fun raya without him.last year was the last raya we had together.i still remember every hari raya,he's the first one i'll seek for forgiveness n den followed by nenek.both of them passed away the the same year.jarak dorng 3 months.i loose 2 important ppl in my life in just a while.i miss hym.i'm close to him.he noes every single thing about me.he noes me fav food.fav place.fav shows.everything.he teach me to watch WWE so that i can defend myself when people want to beat me up.i just miss those happy days with him.he's the one i used to share my feelings with.whom i share my love with.i admit.ibu and ayah loves adik more then they loves me as i was a nuisance last time.i used to make alot of problems.only atok understands why i did all that.only him.since the day i knew he had cancer,i spent alot of times with him.we go out together.it's just not enough.i still remember the last word he say . ''yaya,belajar rajin-rajin tau.tok nak tengok yaya berjaya.jangan degil-degil'' he motivates me.as he know i'm taking this diploma in business admin.how i wish he is still here to celebrate hari raya with me.how i wish i can still hug n hold his hands n seek forgiveness.i just can't go on typing bout this.i'm crying.watever it is,i love n miss u atok n no one can ever be like u.u're my one in a million.thanks for everything.thank you for taking care of me since i was a little girl.thanks alot atok.u mean so much to me.but,life has to go on. n i know,u'll always be by my side even u're no longer in this world.semoga atok selamat di sana.missyou atok.enough of crying.org yg pergi tak akan kembali.yes i noe.now,this is for u aan.sayang,sejak atok takde,papa la tempat mama bermanje.papa la tempat mama mengadu naseb.papa la yg beri mama semangat.papa la yg selalu buat mama senyum.papa,in life.no one had ever make me dis way.only atok.u replace atok in my heart.pls,i've lost atok.i dun want to loose u.i just can't bear if u go.i just want you to be here with me.all things u did to me as exactly same as wat atok had done to me.i love u papa.omg,aan is going home for lyke 3 days?shit babey!i'm so gonna miss hym.nie la akibatnyer kalau da tinggal serumah.satu hari tk tengok muke bolei rinduu babe!aper lagik kalau dier masok NS neext year.omgeeee.sooooo many obstacles la .n i hope i can make it thru.believe in urself nadia!!!!!hari raya isin 2 days time.i still haven't bought my baju raya!shit la okay.aan want to wear pink for this year as we wear black last year.so,i'm going to buy 2 pairs of baju kebaye.one is pink for the both of us.n another one i brown to use it with my family.n i swear,this is the first raya me n my mum did'nt make kueh.plus,hari raya this year add 1 person.which is my new born younger sis.i wanna get my nails done.my eyebrow done.i wanna buy heels.i wanna buy that guess small bag.i wanna buy those MAC make-ups.so many to rush before hari raya.i hope everything will go smoothly.ps;/ aan tengah ngigau.nie la yg best.aku nk p kacau2 dier.bye!have fun people!
I love you babylove.
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