everything is over.between me and him.i've found out the thruth n no more fights no more conflicts.=]i'm just happy.that is all proven.well sayang,ingat okey.tkmo nk buat lagy.i looveeee u okay baby!ingat tuu!yes,people say i'm stupid to give chances to this kind of guy.but,i just can't la sey.i just love him toooo much.n i believe he loves me too.in love,there should be chances and trust.kalau tkder nie smuer,mcm mane nk kekal kaannnn?well,monday is the last day meeting ibu.its her court day.i hope that it will be fine.i dun want to see her go in jail.i love her too much.she's everything to me and my siblings.she is the best friend,the girlfriend,the mother to me.who am i supposed to let out my feelings and sorrows with when she is inside??i seriously can't believe its happening to my family.we used to be a happy family,now?all broke into pieces.i went to macpherson just now.met his mum n all.aan n me then went down.to meet his fren.he show the cover for the ''pirated cd'' of their songs.kewl okay!i love it!n suprisingly,i'm gonna sing for the last two tracks.& i'm happy.i just can't wait to listen.u guys my support us okayy sayanggss!must buy okay the cd!hehe.=].must liten to me sing.=]]

i miss the family i used to have.ALLAH YG MAHA PENYAYANG DAN YG MAHA PENGASIH,KEMBALIKAN LAH KEBAHAGIAAN YG KELUARGA KAMI ADA DAHULU.=[





hello blogmates!i'm here once again.i miss blogging.well,life has been very sucky.with those problems and stuffs.well now,i got 2 bad story to share and 1 happy story to share.i'm shall start with the happy story first okayy.yes,at last i get to met half of his cuzzin.and almost of them going on well with me.n i'm happy with him.loads of pics.yes,i'll post at the end of the post okay babes.his uncle even say that i'm a good girl,true love come once in life.its just if u know how to treasure it.n so,me n aan smile.the words and every comment they gave is just so making me blush.his uncle in a sudden ask,how if aan go for his NS?i was shocked that he asked me that question.n guess wat i answered.''nadia tgu dier la.dier kn kesayangan nadia.i won't betray him''.n his uncle smile widely.=].i'm just so happy to have the second family like this.and i hope this will last.

now,the first bad story.
mummy is in need of money or else she'll go to jail.i dun wanna loose her.cibai okay.saper2 yg pinjam duet mak aku kasi alek la siak.part mak aku susah,tkder org nk tolong.bile part mak aku senang,smuer dtg.the thing she need to pay is the CPF money for the workers.within 1 week.i feel like crying when she told me.12,000 for the rent at the raffles shop.4,500 for the pasir panjang shop,6,000 for the CPF, 250 for my school exams,10,000 for the pasir panjang contract.calculate n see how much money needed.300,000 in her bank account finished.how fast.people yg pinjam mak aku duet tk tau kasi alek duet.korng ader masalah beh mak aku tkder uh nie??ya allah,i just want my mum to be safe.i rather loose my life then seeing her suffer.my both younger siblings still need her.dun take her from us.

the second bad story.






i'm here at the cyber cafe near aan's house.which is at macpherson.i'm sleeping here again.oh-so-loving-it okay!his mom is the one who ask me to stay here for a day.hehe.see.how great to have her.haha.i met busu ijah(aan's aunty) dier gerek punyer okay!she hugg n kiss me at my cheeks.n both of us say i miss you the same tyme.after we talk at the coffeeshop, i need to go home as i need to take clothes to stay macpherson.n wen we bid goodbyes.she look soo sad.as we only talk for a little minutes.not even an hour.i love his family.his aunty.n everyone who is regarding to him.i'm just so lucky to have him . n aniwaes, to all my sweet blog readers,thanks for the kutok tags.i love u people okay.i got to go now.takecare babey!muacks!keep tagging yea.love u people!





& atlast i have the time to update my blog.been bz for this few days due to raya.dis year raya was somehow irritating.yes people.i know i've grown fatter.but u noe what.those words u people put on me sumhow hurts me.org hari raye mintak maaf.nie hari raye nk mengutok.it is the daddy's side who talk all shits lyke this.ee.sedar la diri korng tu.mcm la korng nie tkde isi gitu.so what if i'm faat?lyke hello!org yg kurus pun ader perangai siyal buat aper.kurus2 muke kalau tk lawa buat aper.atleast i know how to takecare of my face.dari anak-anak korng.pakai makeup.mcm wayang pekji.ee.p tgok anak kau tuh dulu beb.jgn smbrg ckp pasal org je.mak aku kasi mkn pe.org mane yg tk gemok lau mkn bnyk.stoopid arsehole siak org-org seperti korng.why are u born this way also aku tak tau.ur son n daughter dun even noe how to dress up okay.sorry,i'm not self-praising myself.but then.just look at them.they dress up like as if korng tk belikn baju.baju asek same jer.waduh.aku nie.bulan baek nk kutok2 org.well,god noes.how i feel.n only this place i can let out my feelings.n this is between me n god.plus,one more thing.ddun ever judge people with tattoes are bad ok!MCM LA ANAK KAU BAEK SANGAT.P LA JAGE ANAK KAU TUUUU.well,i guess this is just a random update.i won't spoil my blog by spitting vulgarities.buat semak.so.dats for all now.n btw,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE!MAAF KAN LA NADIA JIKA ADER BUAT KESILAPAN YE.





i just can't go one finding pictures in my album to put it in my new big frame dat i bought from IKEA.alot of arwah atok pics.i will shed more tears.i just miss hym.dats all.its no fun raya without him.last year was the last raya we had together.i still remember every hari raya,he's the first one i'll seek for forgiveness n den followed by nenek.both of them passed away the the same year.jarak dorng 3 months.i loose 2 important ppl in my life in just a while.i miss hym.i'm close to him.he noes every single thing about me.he noes me fav food.fav place.fav shows.everything.he teach me to watch WWE so that i can defend myself when people want to beat me up.i just miss those happy days with him.he's the one i used to share my feelings with.whom i share my love with.i admit.ibu and ayah loves adik more then they loves me as i was a nuisance last time.i used to make alot of problems.only atok understands why i did all that.only him.since the day i knew he had cancer,i spent alot of times with him.we go out together.it's just not enough.i still remember the last word he say . ''yaya,belajar rajin-rajin tau.tok nak tengok yaya berjaya.jangan degil-degil'' he motivates me.as he know i'm taking this diploma in business admin.how i wish he is still here to celebrate hari raya with me.how i wish i can still hug n hold his hands n seek forgiveness.i just can't go on typing bout this.i'm crying.watever it is,i love n miss u atok n no one can ever be like u.u're my one in a million.thanks for everything.thank you for taking care of me since i was a little girl.thanks alot atok.u mean so much to me.but,life has to go on. n i know,u'll always be by my side even u're no longer in this world.semoga atok selamat di sana.missyou atok.

enough of crying.org yg pergi tak akan kembali.yes i noe.now,this is for u aan.

sayang,sejak atok takde,papa la tempat mama bermanje.
papa la tempat mama mengadu naseb.
papa la yg beri mama semangat.
papa la yg selalu buat mama senyum.
papa,in life.no one had ever make me dis way.
only atok.u replace atok in my heart.
pls,i've lost atok.i dun want to loose u.
i just can't bear if u go.i just want you to be here with me.
all things u did to me as exactly same as wat atok had done to me.
i love u papa.

omg,aan is going home for lyke 3 days?shit babey!i'm so gonna miss hym.
nie la akibatnyer kalau da tinggal serumah.satu hari tk tengok muke bolei rinduu babe!
aper lagik kalau dier masok NS neext year.omg
eeee.sooooo many obstacles la .n i hope i can make it thru.
believe in urself nadia!!!!!
hari raya isin 2 days time.i still haven't bought my baju raya!shit la okay.
aan want to wear pink for this year as we wear black last year.
so,i'm going to buy 2 pairs of baju kebaye.one is pink for the both of us.n another one i brown to use it with my family.n i swear,this is the first raya me n my mum did'nt make kueh.plus,hari raya this year add 1 person.which is my new born younger sis.i wanna get my nails done.my eyebrow done.i wanna buy heels.i wanna buy that guess small bag.i wanna buy those MAC make-ups.so many to rush before hari raya.i hope everything will go smoothly.

ps;/ aan tengah ngigau.nie la yg best.aku nk p kacau2 dier.bye!have fun people!





how clumpsy i can be sia!haha.i fall down when aan mop the floor just now.saket okay!n my head terhentak to the floor . and i can still laugh.bodo sia kau nadia.dar tau licin,p lari.actually,i was running to hym to say good afternoon.as i just woke up.haha.den ended up terjatoh!he angkat me n kiss my forehead.'' GOOD MORNING MAMA SAYANG''.i smiled.he always make my day.aww sayang.so sweet la papa.i took a bath,after that.i help him n my mum to do the chores.well,aan has been a good boy since he stayed my house.my mum loves him.he tolong anuh lagsir n stuffs.wahh!so rajin uh pa kau!he even kemas my room when i was a sleep.as i was smoking just now,he run to me n laugh lyke one bloddy idiot.i was curious n ask why.n u noe wats the reason? haha.dier terjumpe pic lame-lame aku yg sungguh begitu kental.hahaha.none of my ex saw it only hym.so i laugh with him.he kutok mengutok aku la kn.i was so malu okay.that picture was when i was in primary 3?omg!socks high-high sia!hahha.rambot kembang mcm mak nye siyol!haha.aan notty ey kau!ketawe kn aku!u watch out!i go ur house i ask mak if theres any kentalan pic of urs okayy!kauuuu jage ey!haha.till now,he is disturbing me n calling me names lyke ''MAMA SOCK HIGH-HIGH.MCM KENTAL''..fuck you!hahaha.i love u babi.stp kacau aku okay.or else,i'll kick ur bontot yg sek tuh!





hello my fellow blog readers!i'm back home.finally.i miss my bed okay.padahal baru due hari sia tido saner.hehes.yep,sleeping at his house is super duper great uh okay.me n his mum n his youger sisters went to ikea to get the long mirror n the big frames.den after dat,we went to geyleng.pathetic okay!so many minah-minah gittuu.yucks.they stare at me like as if i owe them money sia.pls la ey,go to school back and have some lesson on manners.at geylang,we bought langsir,vcds and food.we bought ''WUJUD'' &''LOVE IS CINTA''. omg,loveiscinta very sad okay the story.i cried sey!to my surprise,aan cried to.the last part.he cried.i turn to him n hug hym n ask him why.he said, how he wish to be so loving like them.n how he wish if one day he die,n leave me alone he can spend 3 last days with me.aww.touching la okay!seeee mane nk dpt lelaki nages tengok crite sedeh2 ginie sey!one in a million okay.n i'm so lucky to have hym.wujud vcd was veryy horror.it was based on true singapore story.ghost in singapore.can see clearly lagyk.eee.maseh dalam aku peh mind uh sey tuhh crite wujud!!eeeeee.aku tknk ingat2 lagyk.the next day,i went to pasar geylang with his mum n his younger sister,ayun to buy the ingredients to cook.surprisingly,mak nk masak favourite lauk aku!=)so sweet la mak!yea,help he to cook.blend the things and stuffs.aan was painting the wall with his brother.he smile at me when i help mak.then mak say,'' nadia tau tak,aan untung dapat nadia.ex dier yg si (his ex name) tuh tak penah nk tolong cik.mcm pompan pemalas.memang bagus pun si aan break ngn dier'' n i say '' tuh la mak.tuh pun aan tk tau nk apprieciated nadia sey.'' den aan intrerrup our conversation '' ey2 nie duer makcik,mengumpat ehk".haha.sayang ku aan.no matter how badly she treat you,i'll promise to heal ur heart.i noe its hard to forget her.but u have to go on.she is happy with her life now.so,forget her.i noe it takes tyme.i will never loose hope on you. yg penting,kau sayang aku.aku sayang kau.hehe.iloveyou uhh sayanng!

ps/ firza,thanks for the card raya.=)selamat hari raya!






indeed.he cried.he cried infront of my face.he read those things i've type in here.
he cried as he hurt me too much.he realise now.everything gonna be fine baby.i'm so not gonna leave u alone.
i'm here sayang.i'm always here for u.i'll be there when u're in need.
and that's a promise alright baby.u're not alone.i'm here walking down with u.to share ur laughter,happiness and saddness with.i'll walk this tiny path with you.never in my life a guy shed tears for me.u're the first.u're my joy,my happiness.sayang,no matter how much i've hurt or u hurt me,my love for u not gonna change.i feel so bad whenever u cry.i feel like i'm not a good girlfriend to you.i'm just scared to loose u one day.i care for u sayang.i love u so much.n there is no words or numbers can describe my love for you.u are just too special.
too special for me to loose.just now,when i saw u cried,i cried too.i just dun want to show it to you.as i don't want you to cry animore.i cried inside.inside my heart.the warmness of hugs.n sweet kisses.i feel touch.i feel safe.u're just the one baby.n you are the reason i smile.you are the reason i change.you are the reason.no one else sayang.just remember this in mind.i'll love u till the world ends. and nobody can seperate us okay.i love u sooo much.

the memorable thing you've ever done for me is being by my side.cheer me up whenever i'm down.u pampered me when atok left me.u're the one.no one understands my feeling like you did.yes,we do argue.tell me which couple don't.but,u'll put that smile and say sorry.n that makes me okay.sayang.promise me you won't cry again okay?mama tak suke la tengok papa cry lagi.mama sayang papa tau!nakmo cry animore okay?
u're the one who make me smile every single day without fail.so,duun make mama sad by seeing u cry okay darling?sayang..how i wish i can tell the whole world i love u more than anything else.remember our dreams?make sure u keep ur promises to me okay.disneyland okay baby!huge-huge pooh bear engrave my name and yours okay sayang?dar la.stop being soo mushy-mushy okay.lets blog about later.

yea,its already 6.05am.i'm still not asleep yet.going to his house later on.cnferm da abes kemas aku tido mcm pig siak.haha.ee.pap tido mcm babi siak pa.bedengkor sey.lau mama bolei record skrg pt laptop nie.mama record kasi smuer org dengar sey pa.mcm mane nie mama nk sleep.papa dengkor kuat sey!iskk!shhhh.diam laaa papa.shame-shame ey?k la..meh mama kiss mesti papa diam punyer.i noe u already syg.wenever u snore,i kiss n say shh papa.u'll stop.mehh!muackkks!hmm.hmm.n yea.atlast u stop already!i can now go to bed for lyke 4 hours only?gosh.not enough o0kay.fuck.fuck.okay bye.sebelom dier dengkor lagyk.aku p tido.so tk biseng.BYE PPL.





i just can't wait for tomorrow.i'll be going macpherson n help his mummy out to kemas2 the rumah.n plus,overnight der too.mesti penat punyee kn!so tak puase.*shhh*=x. aan mcm tak pecaye dat i'm gonna overnight at his place.as he noe i can't tolerate hot places.i'm used to the aircon since i was a kid.actually my reason is,i want to feel how is it lyke to have a family lyke his.i want to get used to the fan when i'm sleeping.i'm enough pampered.i'm sick n tired of it.so i guess,i want to build up a new lyfe ahead.i want to stand up by my own n do everything by myself.(i hope so.)as i'm not independent.i can go around without people accompany me.till when i have to be yke dis kn?so,i'm changing.his mum gonna cook my fav dish la sey tomorrow!as she heard me sleeping der.i feel so welcomed.his younger sister,ayun,is also shocked.she even say ''tak penah2 aku dengar yg kau nk tido sinie.selalu aan ajak kau tido sini,kau taknk.kau asl?kene sawan ey?'' haha.shit kn.even my mum ask me.dat silly question.well hey.ppl do change.i want to take good care of his family heart.as i noe they are lyke a part of me. love their half.so i should love them too right?







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raya is in weeks.i feel lyke not going out for raya dis year.i miss arwah atok n arwah nenek.they r so close to me.i feel lyke i've lost a part of me.they took care of me since i'm a lil girl.they always ask me to study hard n not to make my cry animore.i miss dem.i just dun the mood to raye without them.atok,nenek.i miss u.how i wish u will be here with me wen hari raya comes.=(





yesterday went macpherson.his mum miss me okay.talk eat n plan for dis cuming saturday.nk p ikea.nk beli bende2.n yea,we took alot of pics ah sey!coolness!i just can wait for tomorrow.its our 13th month being tghter.lame knnn!
i've not been dis kind of long term relationship.so called he is my first love.. i'm soo happy.even it is just lyke 1 year 1month.but i apprieciate every single day minutes wid hym.he is just lyke soo precious too me.veryyyy okay!he's the guy i've always been wondering of.sygggg ku aan.i just wanna wishh happy 13th monthsary.i love u okay sweetheart.n never will u be replace in my heart.
in my heart,ders only u.

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NURUL NADIA BTE MADYUSAK.
i grew 1 year older every 11 march.
believe it or not,i'm 17 dis year.
ex student of greenridge sec.
haters makes me famous.hate me more pls sluts.
i've got frens,my dear & family so i can't be bothered if u hate me.
i'm so oh loving my lyfe.
I'm friendly if you are nice.
& I'm a bitch if you act like one.
I'm being nice nowadays.But don't take me for granted.
Once you provocked me.I'll screw you up and make you look like an ugly monster.
So,do try me =)

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None other den my one n only ABY PUTRA;
He make me drools with every single thing in him.
I love u darling.

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