Monday, April 30, 2007
If only this world wouldn't have feelings because all I ever want in this world is to be happy but it's sooooo not gonna happen for me. People think that i have no heart to feel hurt therefore they can do whatever they wanna do even after i've told them that they've hurt me..like so bad. What are you made of? BATU?METAL?PLASTIC? Do you even have feelings towards me? They think that i am a freaking robot that can control every single thing in my life and bring me down whenever they want to. Yes, maybe I've been stupid all this while but let me remind you of Karma.I feel that I'm worthless to you, I feel that I just need someone that could come into my life, to hear my thoughts, to lend a listening ear and be nice as possible to me whenever i'm near. You can take all my freaking money,freaking material stuffs, I don't need them, they are not important, all I need is care&concern love&passion. Unfortunately, no one, i repeat,no one can come close to that.I need fresh air, i need to gain myself back, and if people who have been loving me and caring for me WOULD realise that I've not been being myself lately. that's IF you people cared for me. i think i need to lock myself up in the bathroom and just let my feelings flow with the waters and then flush in down the toilet bowl.how i wish it was that easy. =(((
I think the silent screams helped me alot. Nowadays, deep down inside, I miss my MUHD AZHAR BIN ZURAIMY,seriously, like alot alot. I miss him so bad but it seems like he don't notice it that much. I miss him being there for me when I'm sick, being there for me when I'm on my way home, being there for me when I've got nothing to do at home. I miss everything about how we used to spent time together, but nonetheless, I'm glad he's still here for me. I don't blame you for everything, if you think i am, i'm sorry. =(((
I love you babylove.
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