Saturday, April 28, 2007
i just can't stand it animore.
i wanna let dis feelings out.
You were my everything. You were the one I look forward everyday in my life. When you're sweet, you're the sweetest thing ever. When you make me happy, I feel like I'm the happiest girl alive. But then, opposite times, you can really break my heart in two. Your words are so cruel you make me feel that I should go up to the highest storey and jump down. You told me that I am the one who make you hate me, reality check, after all the things I've ever done in this world with you, after so many heartaches, so many hurtful things you did to me, after what you put me through these years, I suffered silently not wanting you to know that I'm disappointed in you and just continued to love you, and is really because I love you. You put everything, your friends, yourself, your ex and everything you need before me?You put me and make me feel like I'm somekind of useless person when I am the one always beside you no matter what happens. Obviously you don't appreciate it. Look, I'm sick of people coming up to me and saying that I'm the bestest girlfriend ever,when I get nothing and sometimes even the worst things and heartbreaks in the end. Everything I did for you, is not just to force you and make you feel happy, but because I did all that, because I really love you.
ey aan.
Maybe I should try letting abit of you go, since you think I love to control you. It's not control, it's because you didn't give me enough trust. You broke many promises and you're not earning back my trust. I feel as though you don't even care, don't care about me, about our anniversary, my important days, nothing. You weren't there. Three words. YOU DON'T CARE. It was my mistake that you're like this now, you assumed you can use me to get everything but not giving enough love to me in return. It's unfair, so unfair. When you get everything you need, you throw me far away not wondering how much I had to go through. Like I said before, I don't need much, I don't need you to buy me so many gifts, I don't need you to spend on me, I don't need you to big things for me, I just need love from you and BE NICE. And with just that, you can't give it to me fully. I don't understand. I read through all the old posts about you and me and how loving you were. It's just fading,every single day. My glass just broke into million pieces right infront of my eyes, and I just realise that my heart is feeling the same way. When I bleed, I realise how many sacrifices I did for him. When someone comes up to me and confessed that they love me, I backed off and I never did return my love because I only love this person who actually called me a stupid. Haiis. Labels: i'm just letting it all out.
I love you babylove.
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